Have you ever wanted to tell someone about God, but you were scared what they might think. Whats might be funny is that you don't care that that person knows your daily habits, how you vote, your favorite food, your opinions about everything. In fact, you might not care what anyone thinks about you. Except when it comes to God. 

What you are saying to God is that your friendship with that person is more important than him and the sacrifice his son made for us. I have done this time and time again. I don't hold people accountable to their faith, because I'm scared that they won't like me anymore, of that they will judge me because I may not have been the best Christian. Chambers makes it very clear, that this is not a decision we get to make. We have been commanded by God to tell the world about him. The choice is between the people you tell and God. 

You have done your part and you have obeyed God. Thats all he asks. I challenge you to tell someone about God this week. Submit to obedience. I did it for the first time. I did it in an email because I had a lot to say (I know that its not the best), I can tell you that we have a great relationship and still do, and I know he read it be
 
 
The Last 4 days have been great and terrible. I am in a new country with great people and great food. I am also struggling because I am far from the ones I love. My girlfriend, brother, and parents are thousands of miles away. The closest I can get is an occasional skype conversation with them, face to face (still only on a computer screen).

The Day I left the title of the devotional was Vision and Darkness. He speaks about God giving you a vision and then being in darkness for a while. The time of darkness is a time to pursue God and continue to wait on his timing. It was over a year ago that I decided I wanted to come to this country. I wanted to finish the last semester of school I would ever need somewhere else. Somewhere incredible. So here I am. In Berlin, Germany. The problem is that reason #1 I was willing to leave was, "No Girlfriend." As God would have it, in that short time I fell in love with an amazing women. She has been quite resiliant since I left.

I have had nights of insecurities, staying up staring at the cieling wondering what she is doing or if she misses me. This is the Darkness. What is funny is that I asked God for all this, just not in this order. I thought that I would go to Germany, then get a job, and then find the girl. Well I found the girl, left for Germany and have no job lined up when I get back. I'm not really worried about it though. The majority of the problem is in my head. I have spoken to my girlfriend everyday and once via skype video. The transition could not have been greater. God has provided everyday. I have a great place with a great roomate in a great location.

Its time to listen to God and wait. My girlfriend will hopefully still be there when I get back, but that is in God's hands. My family will of course, God willing, still be there as well. As for the Job, it will come too. I think its really funny how things come together when God is involved. God brought my girlfriend into my life. She is the one that suggested that we start "My Utmost for his Highest." Something I have noticed is that I cannot be a good witness to God if it is evident that I am not trusting him. He is in control of every situation.

Moving on, January 20th addresses "Are you fresh for everything?" One tihng that stuck out to me is where Chambers says "Don't pretend to be open with Him." Am I undermining God while he is trying to work in me? Chambers then says "Being born of the Spirit means much more than we usually think. It gives us new vision and keeps us absolutely fresh for everything through the never ending supply of life of God." 

With that, I'll close with this thought. Just trust God. He knows what he is doing. It sounds so cliche but God really must laugh when we tell him our plans. Just know that he is not scoffing. He just has much bigger things in mind, especially when his kingdom is involved. 

I'll continue with January 21-22 tomorrow. 
 
 
I have begun to read Oswald Chambers' book and will write a sort of commentary about it as I read. This book is awesome by the way. Feel free to buy it and follow along.